imma positive thinker !


hey , hmm , don't feel sleepy yet, now , it's alr 1.30 .
how late yahh , once in a blue moon i sleep late .
hmm , tomorrow meeting my kakak cyntah , ijhaa !
we're going to da library , yeay ! (:
study la obviously , lotsa homework !
damn it kannn ? ):
haiyaaaaaaaaaaa , you know , you know , i love life .
haha , random right .
kay , tomorrow imma gonna snap many pictures (:
i <3 shalizaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa !
haha , and , i'll upload baby nik's photo too .
hehehe , cute tau dieh .
and , i'm outta words , bye .

i; love; you; boy;
love; is; nonsense; at; this; young; age; !;

Cute kan gambar ini ? :))



Soon , i'll be having braces :)
I like the first photo , nice right !
Be patient bariah ,.
Soon , i'll have STRAIGHT teeth ! :D
Weeeeeee , can't wait .
It's expensive , but with school referral , CHEAPO .
Not so cheap la , but , mum said it's affordable :)


Nice seh the eyebrow , i want ):

Kay laa , i guess , that's all ~ :)

For after so long , only today , NOW , i listened to the song Dhydhy wanted me to hear ,
Over the years - nevershoutnever .
The lyrics ;

I'm sorry for the nights I let you down
Now all that's left to see is that I turned around
Back to the boy you fell in love with
Not this plague that brings you down
Remind your mom to call me I still care
Cause her approval meant the world
And I will not dare to disagree
With the life you arrange
Just remember only God knows if I've changeI'll sing along to every song
I type a lie for the ride
Cause in my head, I'm right there tonight,
Through the good times
The bad ones too
I'm here for you
Cause in my dreams
You're the one who keeps me asleep
On the nights where I can care less
If I ever woke up again

This song has alot of meanings to our recent relationship, i know );
Dear , i still remember , at Suntec , you shed your tear for me .
You know , i felt touched , really touched .
At Suntec , the things i did with you , unforgettable !
Went out with you and your YOG squad , :D
Your kiss , your warm hug , your phrases .
It's unforgettable !
I still remember , you tried to -insertword- for the first time , you puked .
Thn , i keep telling you that you can't pray for 40days and you go mrajok !
Hehe , all those fun times dhy . I love it !

Now , it has all become memories .
Nothing already , we're nothing yea ?
Friends ? Bestfriends ? Acquaintance ?
I don't know , it's you , your choice .
I still remember your message to me before flying to Australia .
" Bhy , i promise i'll meet you for the last time after my Australia trip , take care & i love you . "
Haish , when i fowarded you the message , you told me have no time & promises can be broke .
But , it's okey , sooner , confirm , i'll meet you . :)
Bismillah .
Okay laa , i guess , i'll get nothing writing about you .
Take care , brother .
I love you . <3



School , first period and i was already upset with the friend beside me .
Oh gosh , i was having that jealousy feelings ):
I am glad to see you and your girlfriend happy again .
Kay , whatever to that .
Social studies , went to the computer lab , played some NE game ?
Passed through level 3 .
Mother tongue , went through some worksheets .
Recess , went to many class table to make new friends , friendly , i know :)
English , Synthesis & Transformation .
Math , i forget . =.-

Kay , sounds so boring , but , overall , school was GREAT . No problems today . :)
Only the first period , suckish !

Homework , not so much :)
Kay , i guess this is the end .
Goodbye !

Hey !
Start texting HIM already :)
Lol , he wished me belated 5th monthsarry !
If we were together , we could've gone this far , haish .
So , it was a war la , hmm , we fought .
He asked , why couldn't i leave him , so , i had to explain .
Than , i looked at all the long messages he used to send me , i cried .
Sweet , i say . :D
I should write it down okayokay ? (:

- If granted just one wish , i know what it would be , for the only thing i long for is to have us together , have a family together ,
And last forever baby :'(

I love this , idk why :P

- Bee love honey , Bear love honey too .
Bats love blood , bats love blood too .
If i love you , then you love me too ! (:

Cute kankan ? ;p

- The day would be nothing with you , you're a special person in my life b , i know you won't like a guy with sickness and a broken family like me . That's why i don't want you to get affected , i understand why , but i'll keep on trying to love you . :-(

Remember this , I'll stay with you even if we have to go through happiness and sorrows together , that's a promise . Even if we fight , i still love you :-( I understand you got other guys waiting , not only me . Even i know that i can't win , I'll still try , I'll give until there's nothing else to give .

B ,
Ku sayang pada mu .
Ku jatuh cinta pada mu .

Kay , yang ini , no comments , just a big " -______-"

-When I'm gone , just carry on , don't moarn rejoy everytime you hear the sound of my voie . Just know that I'm looking down , smiling . Don't feel the pain , just let me feel the pain . I can see you sad eventhough you laugh and smile , i can see deep in your eyes that you wanna cry . Don't waste your tears on me when I'm gone , have a good life with the person you love . (e'en) Because i can't live long . Throw all the fun times we had together . You won't be needing me . Last long with e'en .
Iloveyou.

Huahua , yang ini , time tu , aku msg2 e'en beh ni HIM salah anggap !
A big lol , eh ? LOL !

-I hope that you can hear me , I'm waiting to heat from you , until i do . You're gone away , I'm left alone , a part of me is gone and I'm not moving on , I know the day will come , I wish i could have told you the words i kept inside , but now I guess it's too late , so many things reminds me of you . I miss you , this is good bye , one last time .

My favourite of all , idk why . LOL !

-b , I know you're asleep , i ckap nie , takmo marah okay . you know i love you b , you know don't you ? haish , i wanna be with you , but , i still can't trust you yet b . Please understand me , i know you pon still can't trust me , it's hard kan b ? I know it is . Maybe we're not meant to be together , idk okay . Maybe we should go on seperated ways , we keep on fighting everyday . Not your fault , but , mine . I accuse you , i scold you . That's what i do . There's never a day that we never fight and never a day i make you happy .


LOL ! All his messages .
I'm bored , i slept in the evening .
Very long period , i swear !
Now , my eyes don't wanna close .
Haiyooo ,
kay laa
That's all ?
Byebye !

:D

Bad mood ? ):
Chaochibey , aku tknk g ngan tu empatbradek !
Ngan yang laen atleast okay uh !
Grrr , suey lahh suey !
Tao bilang yang thaknak gy .
Nie kan , conferm aku keneh bayar , yang laen2 tk yahh , konec sia .
KONEC !
Grrr , mcm nak nanges gytuh .
Sodehhhhhh sial !
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR !
Mixed feelings , nabeh !
AKU TAKANAK IKOT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BOLEY JADY GYLEHR SIA AKU !!!!!!!!!!!!!
SOT AH SOT .
FUCK , FUCK , FUCK , FUCK !
MACAM NAK BUAT INI LAPTOP LUAR TINGKAP PON ADEHR !
PUKITAEC !
FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.
I`M CRAZYYYYYYYY .
SUMPAHHHHH SIA , FIRST TIME SIA !
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH .
TOLONG !
BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE